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Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
2:39 am	gone gone and gone again yeah my internet's been all messed up lately so i cant even see if this posts n yeah. im gonna be gone from hella early thursday morning til sometime on sunday so i guess if ya feel the need try to gimme a ring on the cell cuz i maaaay have service whoooo knows but yeah ill see all yus when i return. lata ya'll Current Mood: sober Current Music: leftover crack's 'fuck world trade' (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 25th, 2004
3:33 am	the disaster march once again i come back to this and have to somehow sum up my life since the last post. i dont even know where to start, hell i dont even remember that last post i wrote. jesus i cant remember half this fucking summer for god's sake. but whatever ill do my best. friday fucking rocked. spent forever trying to get grog but it eventually came through so me n heeeella other peeps went down to palo alto to see the o2w and finer points show. after that most of us went up to woodrat to celebrate john q's brief return to the bay area but that fell apart faster than bush's reconstruction plan for iraq. so we departed and went to katy's. and thus the night began, right from the get go i started to drink and drink and drink. im pretty sure i almost vomitted at one point or maybe i did a lil but i just kept drinking and drinking throughout the ENTIRE NIGHT. i remember at one point no one had pants on and for some odd reason i got a kiss for a cookie and i remember having an amazing talk with dro and melissa broke emily's mirror or somethin and that was bad news but the rest of the night was fucking tiiiiight. mucho props to katy for throwing such a great bash. was tight meeting chris and justin too, theyre tight guys. and thats a good portion of what i remember. i could go into more detail but i dont even wanna do that. so somehow afterward i toppled over to the van with roof n alley and we napped til i dropped em both off then slept ALL FUCKING DAY. it was beautiful actually. just been reading n shit. so now im here and a lil tired cuz its like 3:30. but yeah thats enough banter for one night. i got a free house from sunday night to thursday evening or something so call me n we'll party it up. later ya'll. Current Mood: bitchin' Current Music: the forgotten's 'keep the corpses quiet' (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
1:59 am	a single belief the constitutional amendment banning gay marriage most likely won't pass!!!!!! im so fuckin happy about that like wow. that bastard in the oval office has already left a permanent scar on the side of america that we all gotta live with and i dont want it getting any deeper. other than that, things could be better. been writing fairly little lately which may have something to do with how im feeling. ive been consumed by confusion lately and its driving me insane. or maybe im just not doing enough drugs whoooo knows. only thing that pisses me off more than being confused are misunderstandings. not even gonna TOUCH that in ere. gives me a headache even thinkin about em. just to throw the idea out there, if i'm ever involved it one and you reelly know me, ask yourself if i would actually mean anything id say like that honestly. wow that sentence came out reelly awkwardly. yeah you know what i mean. i hope. yeah well ive got football tomorrow so im off. damn this was a shiiiitty post. god i dont even care anymore. id say ill return with a more enlightening and happy post but well...... yeah dont count on it. later ya'll. p.s. i need something to fill me up Current Mood: empty Current Music: redemption 87's 'all guns poolside' (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 4th, 2004
2:09 am	silence = death wow that subject reelly seems to fit. well ive been mighty quiet here for a while so i thought this calls for an update. so its been a good two weeks since ive touched this damn thing so lots of stuff has gone down. well not quite lots but it almost seems like it. warped tour was today and it fuckin rocked. great sets all around and i even lost my shoes. bad religion, bouncing souls, anti-flag, casualties, nofx, ima robot, alkaline trio, flogging molly and many others im forgetting all put on great sets and it was a damn tight ass day. picked me up some new shirts and i talked to the peeps running the punkvoter booth about propagandhi (who they love as do i) and they were the sickest peeps at the damn place. mucho props to them. been doin pretty well in football i suppose. im up to 125 lbs. from 110 when i started and its all muscle thank GOD. got passing league on the 11th which should be tiiiiiiiight. been cuttin back on the drinkin actually. i mean ive still been having a good ol' time but well yeah much less than earlier. seed of doubt might be practicin next week which should be tight. im hella lookin forward to gettin back in the scene. i crave for the scene dammit. yeah ill update eventually whooooo knoooows when. call me anyone please im as bored as everyone else. 799-7259 Current Mood: worn the fuck out Current Music: bad religion's 'the empire strikes first' (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, June 18th, 2004
9:06 pm	a sudden intake of breath yet again i come back to this with only excuses for not updating and well.....i honestly dont care. i mean its summer time and ive been a busy lil fucker jesus christ. got a heeeella long football tournament tomorrow so im staying in tonight and putting a whole lotta my vinyl on cd. hopefully the hard work pulls through tomorrow and i can at least do a semi-alright job. deets on that in a day or two who knows. well im off to finish some more seed of doubt material. the guitar calls. Current Mood: peaceful (god its a nice night) Current Music: mico's 'outside the unbearable grows' (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 15th, 2004
12:53 am	so complicated was the fall me n roof need to drink and kick it more often and talk politics more often. doesnt get better than that. i mean just having a deep unrestrained conversation with anyone is amazing and it makes me soooo happy to do. but yeah its tight i suggest you all do the same its life changing and fun at the same time. hopefully a long update to come soon. who the fuck knows though im a busy bee dammit. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:40 am	ya know, summer is just a whole lotta nothing but its much needed i swear. in the last week and a half i know for a fact ive learned so much about myself and everyone around me than about math or english or any of that at LEAST. insane, you're all great peeps and all you greats know who you are. the love just radiates. keep it coming ya'll its gonna be a looooooooong summer. just keep it positive and itll be a great one. Current Mood: educated Current Music: clann zu's 'black coats and bandages' (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 8th, 2004
5:13 pm	The Keys to Life vs. 15 Minutes of Fame yeah been a very long week. summers here. still confused bout life. very good and not so good things are happening but whatev. way too busy to update it seems. yeah ill update eventually. Current Mood: interesting Current Music: pulley's 'matters' (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 1st, 2004
11:24 pm	ive so much to say, yet no mouth to speak out of. ive so much to give, yet can figure no means to deal with it. i have a pain in my heart and i do not know how to fix it. im falling apart at the seams and have no stitches to repair myself. something is not fucking right. it just doesnt click ya know? it doesnt fit together. i just dont get it. theres so much to it yet its so simple and i have so much to write yet i can not type. this is useless. im sure ill spill when i can get together my thoughts. this is fucking useless. Current Mood: lost Current Music: punk-o-rama 9 (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 24th, 2004
11:17 pm	broken english three lil notes for today: wish i could see people more wish i had more time for music wish i could find a fucking drummer if yu can help with any of these lil notes, please do tell. especially that last part thats a toughie. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: alice cooper's 'mascara and monsters' (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
9:16 pm	the olive branch one thing that pisses me off more than unnecessary fights are ones that have people taking sides that dont even know what the fuck is up.i mean shit. all i know is that i had an interaction with someone who had an issue with somethin i did because they thought i didnt think shit through and was just being a moron even though i clearly told the person i knew what the fuck i was doing and that they too had done the deed under much worse circumstances. nothing gets through. i just want peace. i dont want all this shit being thrown back and forth and these assumptions need to fucking stop. i dont want ANYONE thinking a person is better than someone just for some stupid ass shit that affects NO ONE aka drinking or not drinking or any of that sort. it doesnt fucking matter. i dont see the issue here. if yu dont drink or smoke or anything, thats kool just dont think of yurself as higher than someone who does JUST CUZ. if yu doooo do those things, dont think of anyone else lower than yu just cuz they choose not to do anything. i mean it reelly doesnt matter. plus i mean before sides are taken (i dont even like saying that) know what the hell is going down. three comments to someone's livejournal post discussing this deal with me i didnt even know who these people were, i mean one of em said something about throwing away a relationship for that person trying to care??? thats bullshit right there. get yur facts down. ive made plain fucking clear i dont want any of this and that i DO listen. i got no problem if matt or carissa or joyce or greg or jon or anyone else want to do their own thing just dont pull all that shit on me. i mean pleeeeease just show some fucking respect. thats all i ask for. you can dislike me, i mean i wish it wasnt like that but i mean if yu reelly dont like me that much, whatever go do yur own thing, just show me some respect. i dont like naming names cuz now i just know one of these people are gonna get a hold of me saying 'oh well i didnt do this'. this is a general statement. not everyone did this or that. i cant fucking stand this shit. look im sorry if i offended, upset, angered, disappointed, or any other emotional reaction i could get out of anyone. i just cant take this. someones gotta take the first step. im willing to put this out there and hope SOMEONE understands. i dont even know how this all came about. i just know that there was far less troubled water just a lil while ago and it can go back if we can just show some respect. just please someone help me fucking out. okay im done. ive tried. i dont know what else i can do but put this shitty ass little rant out there and hope for the best. ill say it again, i apologize for whatever the hell i did if i had anything to do with this schism. im sorry. yu all got the screen name or digits if yu wanna talk about this. thanks for reading this. please bring the unity back. Current Mood: hopeful (14 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
11:35 pm	all the people now yeah ive been heeeeella busy making shiznit up for that week of skool i missed so i havent even been going online much. not a bad thing im just not used to it. expect an almost full recovery lets say by next week. aight well im still hella busy with football n such plus got the physics field trip tomorrow. tight. Current Mood: geeky Current Music: clann zu's 'self-titled' (released only online) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 17th, 2004
11:21 pm	just one match will burn this town got a couple new cds so thats all im reelly payin attention to. spring training started today. wooooo. yeah im done for tonight. Current Mood: amused Current Music: division of laura lee's 'dasnotcompute' (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 16th, 2004
10:54 pm	a hero appears i'm just a wishful puppeteer Current Mood: hurting Current Music: the lawrence arms' 'the greatest story ever told (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 15th, 2004
1:06 am	oooooookay i have no fuckin clue how that last post got sent four times but now im hellsa confused. whatever i guess. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:02 am	good news week wow its been a long long week. left for the mosaic project with colin on sunday and just got back tonight which is friday. god it was amaaaaazing. all the staff and other cabin leaders were all sooo tight and i love em all. got to partay and make a fool of myself at times while at others i think i might have actually made a difference in some kids' lives. some of those kids are def gonna make a difference someday. i give em my full hopes and love. read colin's post from today with some great quotes from the week. some great things were said and he got a couple of em. there were def more though so ill try to remember em. notion! - 'alex...before you start getting frustrated...you need to start making some fucking sense.' cabin thailand - ' WHO ARE WE??? WE IS THAILAND!!!!! ian - 'well i dont think i can follow kara's whole accidental whore situation but i UUUUUSED to solicite if that makes up for anything' (then one who shall remain nameless responds in a very meek voice 'ten bucks back there right now' lauren - ' yeah so i just kinda wrote on her book yay for vaginas' rolo - ' i dont care if this is the mosaic project or not, those guys were being little pussies' john - 'and that kid theos like oh can i just finish my lunch, i got here late and id just like to finish my pickles' kia - ' so i just kinda turned around and let out a muffled scream in front of the girls and then had to explain to them if i didnt do that id strangle that little bitch when she got there' jason - 'hey mambo come here.......when i wake up, and put on my make up...... i have a little dream of you....(then drives away)' more lovable quotes to come when i can remember em lata ya'll Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: the clash's 'self-titled' (i had clash city rockers stuck in me head all week) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:02 am	good news week wow its been a long long week. left for the mosaic project with colin on sunday and just got back tonight which is friday. god it was amaaaaazing. all the staff and other cabin leaders were all sooo tight and i love em all. got to partay and make a fool of myself at times while at others i think i might have actually made a difference in some kids' lives. some of those kids are def gonna make a difference someday. i give em my full hopes and love. read colin's post from today with some great quotes from the week. some great things were said and he got a couple of em. there were def more though so ill try to remember em. notion! - 'alex...before you start getting frustrated...you need to start making some fucking sense.' cabin thailand - ' WHO ARE WE??? WE IS THAILAND!!!!! ian - 'well i dont think i can follow kara's whole accidental whore situation but i UUUUUSED to solicite if that makes up for anything' (then one who shall remain nameless responds in a very meek voice 'ten bucks back there right now' lauren - ' yeah so i just kinda wrote on her book yay for vaginas' rolo - ' i dont care if this is the mosaic project or not, those guys were being little pussies' john - 'and that kid theos like oh can i just finish my lunch, i got here late and id just like to finish my pickles' kia - ' so i just kinda turned around and let out a muffled scream in front of the girls and then had to explain to them if i didnt do that id strangle that little bitch when she got there' jason - 'hey mambo come here.......when i wake up, and put on my make up...... i have a little dream of you....(then drives away)' more lovable quotes to come when i can remember em lata ya'll Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: the clash's 'self-titled' (i had clash city rockers stuck in me head all week) (Comment on this)
1:02 am	good news week wow its been a long long week. left for the mosaic project with colin on sunday and just got back tonight which is friday. god it was amaaaaazing. all the staff and other cabin leaders were all sooo tight and i love em all. got to partay and make a fool of myself at times while at others i think i might have actually made a difference in some kids' lives. some of those kids are def gonna make a difference someday. i give em my full hopes and love. read colin's post from today with some great quotes from the week. some great things were said and he got a couple of em. there were def more though so ill try to remember em. notion! - 'alex...before you start getting frustrated...you need to start making some fucking sense.' cabin thailand - ' WHO ARE WE??? WE IS THAILAND!!!!! ian - 'well i dont think i can follow kara's whole accidental whore situation but i UUUUUSED to solicite if that makes up for anything' (then one who shall remain nameless responds in a very meek voice 'ten bucks back there right now' lauren - ' yeah so i just kinda wrote on her book yay for vaginas' rolo - ' i dont care if this is the mosaic project or not, those guys were being little pussies' john - 'and that kid theos like oh can i just finish my lunch, i got here late and id just like to finish my pickles' kia - ' so i just kinda turned around and let out a muffled scream in front of the girls and then had to explain to them if i didnt do that id strangle that little bitch when she got there' jason - 'hey mambo come here.......when i wake up, and put on my make up...... i have a little dream of you....(then drives away)' more lovable quotes to come when i can remember em lata ya'll Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: the clash's 'self-titled' (i had clash city rockers stuck in me head all week) (Comment on this)
1:02 am	good news week wow its been a long long week. left for the mosaic project with colin on sunday and just got back tonight which is friday. god it was amaaaaazing. all the staff and other cabin leaders were all sooo tight and i love em all. got to partay and make a fool of myself at times while at others i think i might have actually made a difference in some kids' lives. some of those kids are def gonna make a difference someday. i give em my full hopes and love. read colin's post from today with some great quotes from the week. some great things were said and he got a couple of em. there were def more though so ill try to remember em. notion! - 'alex...before you start getting frustrated...you need to start making some fucking sense.' cabin thailand - ' WHO ARE WE??? WE IS THAILAND!!!!! ian - 'well i dont think i can follow kara's whole accidental whore situation but i UUUUUSED to solicite if that makes up for anything' (then one who shall remain nameless responds in a very meek voice 'ten bucks back there right now' lauren - ' yeah so i just kinda wrote on her book yay for vaginas' rolo - ' i dont care if this is the mosaic project or not, those guys were being little pussies' john - 'and that kid theos like oh can i just finish my lunch, i got here late and id just like to finish my pickles' kia - ' so i just kinda turned around and let out a muffled scream in front of the girls and then had to explain to them if i didnt do that id strangle that little bitch when she got there' jason - 'hey mambo come here.......when i wake up, and put on my make up...... i have a little dream of you....(then drives away)' more lovable quotes to come when i can remember em lata ya'll Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: the clash's 'self-titled' (i had clash city rockers stuck in me head all week) (Comment on this)
Friday, May 7th, 2004
11:52 pm	struck by a wrecking ball okay ive been sooooo busy lately. id write in here more often but ive been packed for the last week with things such as: football class/homework (making up shiznit n such) fine tuning a new batch of songs i wrote lisnin to the new nekromantix album heeeella busy. but yeah nothing reelly goin on. justin, roof, dylan, grace, ally, and alaina just left after we chilled at my place for a couple hours. was pretty tight i had a good time with em all. took a nap in my van during fifth period and again afterskool with justin carissa n candace justin's sister. then went to the mall where we met up with colin, kevin, aaron, kyle, joyce, psalm, jenna, rachel, spady, and greg and other peeps. just kinda wasted time til we went over to justins n watched that movie gothik which was a PIECE OF SHIT OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. fuckin ridiculous. whatever. i gotta do some homework to get my grades up. oh yeah me n colin are gonna be gone all next week from sunday afternoon till probly late on friday. workin with kids in napa's gonna be a bitch but whatev. i might update before then but who knows. well thats it for me im off. later all. Current Mood: educated Current Music: nekromantix's ' dead girls dont cry' (2 Comments |Comment on this)